Never Listened

I haven't been posting much in the past whole month because I chose to keep the moments to myself, rather than share them. 

My birthday is coming soon and so much changed in the past semester. And as I've always said - so much changed since I came to Germany, 2 and a half years ago.  

Time keeps passing by, but are we closer to where we want to be in life? Are we reaching for our dreams? Perhaps everyone will find out on their own...

For me...as a very, blindy and optimistic man, I'd always like to believe that we do...

It's funny how most of the mistakes we make through out our lives are caused from such simple and stupid habits, yet they're so difficult for us to change. And we know this, but we still never listen...

We don't want to listen, because we think we know what's best for us. We think we know how we feel, why we feel the way that we do and why we act the way that we do...

And because of this, it's so difficult for us to change.

I'm not talking about  changing ourselves. I'm talking about learning about our behavior and knowing why we sometimes hurt ourselves and others and how we can change it. Because I believe that deep down, regardless of how much pain we cause one another, the reasons we do it is because we ourselves feel misunderstood or hurt. 

Anyway... 

When I was young, my dad would always tell me that If I sit all day in front of the computer, I would get a hunch back, have a bad posture and gain weight. I never listened to that and ignored it completely.  He ended up being completely right.. and believe it or not, I was overweight for almost 20 years and with a bad posture for even more than that... 

My mother who would always tell me to focus on my studies because other things aren't so important at the moment. She was right as well...

My closest friends who would think good about me whenever I was feeling down. They were right as well... 

I'm sure, you have examples from your life as well. 

So that is why...

I will try to listen more. And understand. My friends, my future partner, my parents. I'll listen without thinking that I know. So that I can know what they're thinking and feeling.

Because in the end...

All bad compulsions we indulge in, all misunderstandings in our relationships, all of our suffering, all of our negative feelings and so on...

All of it comes from the fact that we don't listen. We just know. And we're so "used to knowing", that change feels impossible. We don't even listen to ourselves...

So from now on...try to listen. Don't put a meaning to what you're hearing. Rather let it come as it is. 

As for how I've been doing...

I've been feeling amazing! And one song describes this, perfectly...! And I hope you're feeling the same way, because you deserve it!