The Knight In Shining Armor
Last story was about a certain way of thinking that can be very self-damaging and a big waste of time if we get used to having such a mindset. Of course, since it's a fictional story, I over- exaggerated with some of the thoughts which the character had, but I really hope you guys got the idea. Perhaps I would have made more sense to explain things from a third person perspective, but I think that we can relate more to something when we read it in our minds as if we are saying it and think to what extend it resembles us.
This story is about another way of thinking also self-absorbed and self-damaging as the first one. It is also fictional and exposes the thoughts of the character and how he/she sees themselves in front of the world.
Another day has passed...
Her eyes - so magical. Her hair - as if it were made of silk.
Oh, how wonderful would it be, to get lost together, forever.
For I am the one that can save you. For I am the one that has to save you. Save you from yourself! Save you from this world! I am the one that can change you!
Because I am the knight, my dear. The knight in shining armor that you were waiting for. Waiting for so long! I am here now. Do not worry.
I know...
It's been a day since we met. I know...you have waited a lot.
But my heart tells me! No...my mind tells me! We are made for one another. Yes!
You and I, darling. We are like the stars, forever glowing. Like the evening - everlong.
And now that I have found you, I simply cannot let go!
Because you must be "the one"! "The one" which I will love forever!
The one which I will never leave!
Yes, darling! Let us run. Let us run away from here. Just you and I, we can disappear!
I know, that it has been 3 days since we met. But I feel it in my head! You are indeed "the one"!
And I will overthink, and I will overdo, and I will do anything just to be with you!
I will shower you with love. I will gift you with my heart!
And if 10 000 roses are not enough, I will make it a 100 000!
And if a 100 poems are not enough, I will make it a 1000!
Because I need you to know, I need you to feel what I feel in my mind!
But do not worry, darling...once you get to know me you shall see that the knight is just a knight if he has his armor on...
Without the armor, darling. Without the armor, I am but a man of weakness.
I am lost. I am hopeless. I am doomed.
I feel no self-love. I have no self-respect. I tear myself apart...just for a glimpse of your appreciation. I wait and suffer, hoping that we will be in love!
The love that will save us! Or more like...the love that will save me!
Save me from myself!
Because the world is awful, darling!
The world is such a mess!
And the only way to survive is, if we stay together forever!
Because my past will hunt me...
Because my doubt will kill me...
Because my joy in life cannot be furfilled by living in loneliness! So please don't leave me! Please don't leave me by myself!
What?!...
You refuse to be with me....?
Then, no matter...
In my heart, I knew that we were meant to be...
But you ruined it all...
You never saw me as I am.
You never appreciated me...
You will never find anyone like me!
For I am so fragile on the inside...
For I am so easily manipulated by you...
But I must move on...
I must survive somehow...
So another I shall find!
And she will be the one, for sure!
I can feel in my mind!
I can read it with my eyes!
Yes, she will be the one!
The one that I just met.
The one whose name I do not know yet!
Yes, she will be the one!
The one to save me...
The one that will understand...
If you actually get into character and read both of the stories, it will make a lot of sense to you. You have no idea how bad both of these ways of thinking are. No idea... and although this is just fiction, I am sure that to some degree, we can all relate to these characters and some of the personality traits that they posses... And that is why, no matter where you are heading in life, no matter what goals you have, no matter what age you are...get to know yourself as best as you can and learn to communicate with yourself and everyone else. Trust me, it requires a lot of time, but it works. It really does work. So put the damn effort. Life is too short already. Don't make it even shorter by always being unhappy. Because we all have problems to deal with. But our worst enemy is one - ourselves. It's ourselves causing a lot of misunderstanding and miscommunication. Its ourselves not being sure what we want out of our lives - personal goals, friendships, relationships, dreams etc... Figure all of these out. Make a list, make a plan. And most of all...ask you yourself what you can do to reach these ideas. What can you improve or change? Are you willing to go that extra mile for yourself and for those you love? Is change even neccessary? Do not accept that life is how you view it at the moment. Do not. That is not reality. That is just your reality at the current moment... and those are your tinted glasses you refuse to remove, because you're afraid of something. But out there, with a little bit of luck, a little bit of understanding and a lot of effort...out there you can meet people with who'm you get along with great...you can fall in love....you can form long-lasting friendships and relationships that are based on genuine feelings...the kind of feelings that don't make you question yourself, they don't make you doubt yourself or regret something from the past... The kind of ones that make you feel alive and present at the moment! Those are the ones you need! And I need too...and everyone for that matter :)
The author of this painting is called William G. Mackenzie. It was a bit harder finding information about him, so I'll leave it to you guys to google him up if you'd like. Also, in case you are interested in psychology and want to know more about I just wrote. Here are some good topics to read about. Again, this is quite complex, so don't assume that just because you feel something or you've behaved in a certain way, it means that you have some serious issues. So just read for your own understanding of your emotions and feelings.
Also, here is the first story I wrote earlier today:
